Friday, September 16, 2011

Evaluating Your Own Worth

I hate it. I really do. There's the fact that I've struggled with self-esteem for pretty much my entire life. And the fact that I love hate relationship with money.

If you think of money as a finite resource (which it has to be to have any value), and there's a crapload of people on the planet, and you're well aware that there are loads of poor people on the planet, then you start to wonder what things would look like if you didn't show a bit of greed. What if you were to, instead, chose to take a lower pay packet in the hopes that the wealth might be shared around? What if a lower pay packet meant that someone else might be employed?

And money never seems to take into account morality. This is my big argument against capitalism. Yep, that's right. I'm anti-capitalism. It's an imperfect system. And instead of finding a slightly more perfect (yes, I realise "perfect" is not a scalar term) system, we seem to be obsessed with trying to make this one work - despite knowing that it's really just not great. It doesn't, for example, take morality into account.

Look at American's and their resistance to socialised healthcare. I had a huge debate with someone on Google Plus about this. I had stated quite clearly that I didn't think I'd ever quite understand his position. Rather than provide healthcare to everyone, he claimed that it was better to try and fix the system so that competition drove down prices.

Of course, it's not in any healthcare provider's best interest to ever enter into a price war... So they may add more value, but they will never get any cheaper. A basic need, such as healthcare, in the hands of the result of capitalism.

But then, I want to be comfortable. I want to be able to pay off my tax bill and buy a kick butt computer and be able to eat well and buy beer etc. All of that important stuff. And one day, I'd love to have my own property. A lifestyle block where I'm able to build something obscenely sustainable with a swimming pool and commercial kitchen for when I have (a lot of) guests over.

So nothing is quite as frightening than being asked to "give a figure" in an interview. Essentially asking, "what do you think you're worth?"

So how do you evaluate yourself?

Whenever asked for "a figure" during what's essentially a job interview, I find myself playing the part of a blushing maiden on her wedding night. There are lots of "ahh"s and "umm"s and more blushing than is healthy.

And then, there's the point that a very old (old as in known for a long time rather than old as in age) friend of mine pointed out. That monetary value is essentially how we define our own worth. Our lifestyle is how we're taught to see ourselves. So if we're earning loads, there's an inherent self worth that comes with it. If we can do this without compromising our own values, then that value is worth all the more.

So assuming I was asked this question recently... what do you think is a fair figure?